About Me.
*~Rosaline Tan~*
19+ years old
NP Health Sciences (Nursing)
COS(BT), Youth Impact
Passionates
cutie_pier@hotmail.com
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purple,roses,rum n raisin,truffles,
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japanese food,furry animals,
babies,dancing,painting,rollerblading
stars,auroras,shopping,skating,
chilling out at night,oceans,nature,
taking photos,cycling,squishing my toes in the soft sand,
baking:)
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Monday, June 18, 2007
11:51 pm
According to a nursing rule, confidentiality and privacy is important. Therefore i will not name names and places in here. But here's how my attachment went...
During this week of attachment, the incidents that happened cause me to reconsider taking nursing. But yes, of course i will continue to strive to be a nurse. Its just that i wasnt prepared for the things i would face during this attachment... the trauma, the grief, the pain that i would feel as a nurse... I was exposed to so many cases that i nvr knew even existed... In the chronic ward, the patients there were like the living dead...its more like a hospice than a hospital really... Suffering that i never knew existed...my heart is heavy and burdened... Its like, suddenly i got to see and know things that i nvr thought could even be possible in this world, except perhaps in my nightmares. And to see the expressions on the patients' faces was heart wrenching. It creeps me out, yet on the other hand, i feel a newfound deep sadness for them...
Today i witnessed a suction procedure of the trachae, in which there is a whole in the chest and throat to suck out the phelgm. I got to do the percussion beating on the patient, in which i unwillingly did...when the suctioning started...to sum it all up, i was in shock. We all were. I was praying as the procedure went on, i needed extra strength to pull through..it was that traumatising. When it was over, one of us, student nurses, fainted... my first time seeing a nurse faint.
Tomorrow, a stroke depressed patient is being put into my care...im really nervous honestly. Cos im not sure what am i supposed to do with her, except take care of her. Moreover, there's a language barrier. Cos i dont speak hokkien and she speaks little mandarin. My first patient...God help me...
Dear Lord, I know we go through this every day, but please give me the knowledge as to why I went to nursing school. Lord, give me the strength to make it through those boring three-hour lectures without falling asleep. Lord, please give me the patience to make it through 8 hours clinicals without getting tired. Lord, give me the endurance to read all the assigned readings and be able to remember it when I am taking a test with four right answers. Lord, give my family and friends the ability to realize I really am on the edge of insanity.. Lastly, Lord, please help me to endure the heartwrenching suffering that i will witness throughout my nursing life. In Jesus's Name i ask and pray. Amen
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May I be a nurse, Lord,
With gentle, healing hands,
Who always speaks with kindness,
Who cares and understands.
And while I'm serving others
As You would have me do.
Please help me to remember
That I'm truly serving You.
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Give me strength and wisdom,
When others need my touch;
A soothing word to speak to them,
Their hearts yearn for so much.
Give me joy and laughter,
To lift a weary soul;
Pour in me compassion,
To make the broken whole.
Give me gentle, healing hands,
For those left in my care;
A blessing to those who need me,
This is a Nurse's prayer.
