Wednesday, December 27, 2006
love letter
6:21 pm
You asked me to tell You, to express, to speak of how i feel. Lord, You know i was never really good at words. So here's a simple love letter.
Thankyou, for helping us, for helping me, for making this Christmas dance a success. Thankyou for Your lovely love signs You've displayed for me in the sky. Thankyou for changing situations around when there was nothing i could do. Thankyou, for providing everything i needed. Thankyou the people You've put in my life. Thankyou for blessing me this december...
And Lord, thankyou for loving me even when im unlovely. You called me a child, and i guess that's how i acted all the while.
Here's how i feel Lord. I am grateful, so grateful for everything You've done for me. But there's a certain void within me that's making me desperate for something more. Something so much more than all these. And I'm restless, Lord. I've got so much more to learn still...
Lord, give me strength, for i am tired. Give me a steadfast spirit, for i am thirsty and dry. Give me wisdom, for i am hungry for more. Give me a larger capacity to love everyone around me...
Sunday, December 24, 2006
health resolutions
12:22 am
Im really grateful for all the people who have prayed and cared for me in one way or another during this period of time when i fell sick, and for tolerating my cries and whines. I love this family.
And i realized, that i am unable to take good care of myself, which explains the many times i have fallen sick. My dad says i dont take good care of my skin. I guess that is true, since i keep eating the seafood that causes my rashes. But i love seafood!!! And i dont drink enough water. Sometimes i can survive the whole day on just a 500ml bottle of water. And then i become dehydrated. And i dont eat regular meals...Sigh.
Resolution for 2007:
1. Apply skin medicine every night and morning
2. Drink 8 cups of water everyday
3. Eat regular meals
yep dats all. i dun think i can resist seafood just yet, so im not gonna put that as my resolution. But i'll still try to resist...
Yawn...stomach still aching...
Thursday, December 21, 2006
God loves me whoopa-wayhey!
9:49 pm
Gonna be really brief in this post:
sigh, i really love my cellgroup. They're a wonderful, funny, nice, enthu bunch of ppl. Love my leaders, love my disciples, love everyone!!!
God loves me God loves me God loves me God loves me God loves me God loves me
And so Ps Paul told us to tell God of all our dreams, fears and the miracles we want to see. and as i told God of all my dreams, my fears and desires, a certain desperation rose up in my heart. Desperate to hear Him answer, desperate to have an answer. God is always faithful. He answered me, He encouraged me, He rebuked me, He gave me answers and revelations. He told me the meaning of my dream.
After service, after supper, i went to the court beside the canteen. my usual habit is to look at the sky. It was really cloudy, cant see the moon at all. Looked like its gonna rain actually. Then i saw it, the hand print in the clouds. A while later, there was a heart shape in the clouds. God spoke to me through them. Then i asked God to clear the sky for me, cos i want to see stars. Then after Ps Daniel's debrief with the leaders. I went out to look at the stars again. The cloudy sky had became completely clear! No clouds at all! And there's so many stars!!! And this is how i am constantly reminded that God 's love for me is neverending and agape. He always loves me through nature things, cos He knows i love nature. Love Him love Him love Him!!
Thursday, December 14, 2006
grow up
1:21 am
With the Spirit you'll burn up. With the Word, you'll dry up. With Spirit and the Word, you'll grow up.
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
God is the center of it all
12:01 am
Another eye opener for me. Mission trip was totally awesome!!! And once again God showed His love for me through nature stuffs. Got too many things to say about mission trip. Come and ask me yourself if u wanna know. haha. im too tired to type everything here.
The power of Prayer, the power of Love, the great power that comes out of a single Choice. Fear flies away and Assurance comes along. Lies are trampled and Trust builds up.
The devil tries to sow discord between people. And all too often we fall into the trap. But God provides a way out. Sometimes we are too distracted with our own emotions and problems to notice that little solution, we just accept 'fate' as it is. And when friendships fail again and again, we begin to notice a cycle. Sadly, some accepted the cycle as part of their life. But that's not supposed to happen! You're supposed to learn something new and not make the same mistakes over and over and over again. And as we try to change, lets not give up halfway, but instead perservere on with God's help. For our God is ever faithful, ever loving, ever merciful.
And this is the lesson that i've learnt over the years:
A friendship, your relationship with people, is also as important to God as it is to you. Best place God the center of all your friendships.
Monday, December 11, 2006
Blue Skies by Point of Grace
11:32 pm
On days of gray
When doubt clouds my view
Its so hard to see past my fears
My strength seems to fade
And its all I can do
To hold on, till the light reappears.
Still, I believe though some rain's bound to fall
That You're here next to me
And You're over it all.
When nights are long
Seems the dark has no end
Still we walk on in the light of the truth
For waiting beyond, where the morning begins
Is the dawn, and Your mercy anew.
Oh, to believe we're alive in Your love
There is so much to see, if we keep looking up.
